One Little Word: 2014

 

I’ve thought about my word a lot. And one day it totally came to me out of the blue. One of my great difficulties in life is focus. My mind is constantly going.

When Regan and I were first married we decided we were going to volunteer in a ESL program where we would help people learn to read. In the beginning they did a test where we found out how we each learned. Every other person in the entire group learned one way and I did another. I need to move around. I am learn better while I move and while I see it. It’s kind how I am made. I am fidgety and always dreaming of something. And sometimes that inability to focus makes it really hard for me to pay attention to the things happening around me. Sometimes especially I get really caught up in plans. (Don’t get me started on my business ideas.)

I’ve realized lately that I need to try and focus more. Focus on my kids when they are right there. Focus on my husband. Focus on the Gospel and serving others. Focusing on the things that matter most. Obviously there is time for dreaming and scheming. But there are times when I need to focus on what’s right in front of me. I remember someone describing me as someone who if I was checking the cows, I’d be thinking of the chickens, and when I  got to the chickens I’d be thinking of the sheep, and so on. It’s so true! I do try to stop and be still and aware. But I need to do that more. And it’s what I am going to work on this year.

One of the things I love about taking pictures of my kids is that it helps me to SEE them. To watch and wait and see who they are. And it helps me to capture that too. I feel like photography of my family makes me a better mom. It helps me enjoy small moments.

So that later when I look back and see those pictures again, I am reminded of how special they each are and how much I love them. Since having Norah a lot of extra things I did in my life have been whittled away. I do less of other things. It is so good for me. But so hard too. I feel lost in a way that those things I love to do are less of me. And finding myself even more in my motherhood has been eye opening and challenging. I am more aware of who I am than I think ever before. In some ways that makes it hard too since I see my flaws so much more apparently.

Norah likes me to hold her. A lot. And that has made it hard to get my big camera out. I feel like some child is constantly in my lap. And that makes taking pictures harder. But if I think about it and have it out and around I can capture things. And so can Regan. And now so can Alden and Lucy. Regan took the ones of Lucy in this post and the top one of Eli. It’s getting everyone involved in the capturing of our family. Its funny now cause Lucy and Alden will say “Quick mom, go get your camera. Norah’s doing something really cute!” And if it’s just sitting there, they will take pictures with it too. So I try and leave it exposed for the light in the room we are in most of the time.

This last year I used my phone to a lot. And I am sure I will do it again this year. But I am going to try and get back to using the real camera again. My phone can take great pictures, but I have more freedom and better shots with my big camera. And it distracts the kids less (which is funny) because they aren’t looking for my phone. They ignore my big camera more. 🙂

I want to see my kids in all their beauty and all the blessings in my life. I want to be filled with gratitude and enjoy where I am and who I am with. I want to rejoice in my life more and I think focusing on who I am with and what we are doing will help me to do that more. Less distraction and more focus.

I think we all need a little less technology and a little more human interaction in our lives. I want my kids to know them come first. 

I mean, look at that smile. The love in those eyes. I gotta focus on that and soak it all in.

 

 

 

  • January 6, 2014 - 9:31 pm

    Anne - Rhonda,
    You have a beautiful mind and a unique and creative way of looking at and interacting with the world.
    Most people are linear thinkers and learn sequentially, in a somewhat plodding manner. You, as a creative, visual thinker, see everything a little differently and ideas and thoughts pop into your mind that take you down different paths. That’s what makes you so wonderful.
    Please don’t try to change who you are and how you think and learn and do. It’s so beautiful just as it is.
    All of the truly creative achievers of this world are just like you. So … congratulations!
    love you just the way you are,
    Anne

  • January 6, 2014 - 9:32 pm

    Jen - I appreciate your noble efforts to always try to be a better wife, mother and child of God. I see your example and it helps me strive to be better also 🙂

  • January 6, 2014 - 9:47 pm

    Tracey - Beautifully written! So much I could relate to as well. I do want to get my big camera out more, maybe try some things that I am eager to learn. I also want to be present more. Love your word for 2014!

  • January 6, 2014 - 10:46 pm

    Lindsay - Awesome word. Its quite deep actually, I like it. I love how similar and yet so different we are from each other and because of that I feel like we learn so much from each other. Well, at least I am learning from you! I love how close we are and we can talk for hours about such a range of topics especially about our kids while Sage and Oliver are doing their thing (and eating your food) And super cute outfit Norah 🙂

  • January 6, 2014 - 11:07 pm

    Susie - Ha that’s so funny. Did we talk about this. I just told Ryan focus was my word. So I think it’s a good one. You really are good at so many things, I’m just hoping I can get good at one thing. Ha ha. Your kids are so cute and they are lucky that you capture and record so many memories.

  • January 7, 2014 - 8:44 am

    Kristi - This is soo good. And so me too! And I loved how you said that stopping and photographing your family makes you a better Mom. I totally feel like I’m abetted Mom the days I slowdown and capture them. Love this. Love love this!

  • January 7, 2014 - 2:58 pm

    Kristyn - Loved your thoughts. They gave me something to think about. Thanks for sharing.

  • January 7, 2014 - 6:50 pm

    Liza - Focus is a great word. I agree, we all need a lot less technology and a little more human interaction. Looking forward in seeing what you are focusing on this year.

  • January 9, 2014 - 11:38 am

    Crystal - It’s obvious that you’ve thought about this and are committed to slowing and being. It’s going to be cool to see where it takes you. I chose SAVOUR for many of the same reasons. I need to really be present in moments, not worrying and planning the next thing. ((( HUGS )))

  • January 9, 2014 - 2:38 pm

    Brenda - Your words paint a picture in my mind of something perfect AND attainable as a female who also mothers. Those eyes that shine with love, are there for each of us, perhaps, right in our own family. If not, thank all goodness that God so loved the world that He sent His Only Begotten Son, whose eyes have that love shining there for us, whom He saved, if we but have eyes to see. I, who am as common as dirt, yet those eyes are for me too…

  • January 12, 2014 - 4:58 pm

    Jean - First off, you all have just gorgeous eyes! I can’t get over that.

    I love how you capture your photos! They just sparkle to me!

  • March 14, 2014 - 4:48 pm

    Lisa - Fantastic word and goal. I may just have to borrow your word next year.

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